2004-09-14
I refuse to quit
See, the difference between "now" and "then" aren't the events mentioned at the end of my last post. This may be a life-long battle for me.
The difference is hope.
It may never go away. I might always have to fight, to cajole, to convince. I might have a monster living under my bed for the rest of my life.
But I am never, never giving up. I never want to go back to what it was. That is the most imporant thing in my life right now. I may be without friend, or family, but I have myself, and God is always near.
I might never be able to convince myself that an uplaned little bag of cookies won't magically make me gain 80 lbs. But I don't want to go back to living in the dark. Never. I think I'd die first.
suzza at 2:54 p.m.