2005-09-22
March of the what...?
There is always more to do at the end of the week than the middle. Suddenly, all these tasks and papers are arising (well, *maybe* they were already in the sylabus...) and I haven't budgeted any time at all.
Oh well.
So I cancelled my meetings with the ED people down town. It's just not worth it, time wise, at the moment. I don't want to connect with someone new and I don't feel (health wise) that I am in a place where I would benefit from "treatment". It would be bi-weekly, and that's just too much right now.
It's so bizare. As good as I feel about what I am doing in service of God, things are kinda crummy for me. I'm stressed and I'm not performing to levels that I would like. It just keeps hitting me that I do, indeed, have these responsibilities. School. IVCF. Me. Homework. Appointments. Friends.
I think the divide is that now, I am able to see my feelings about me doesn't change God's feelings about me, or the work I do for HIM. And I want to do work for him all the time, every day, every breath.
(Actually, things just... lit.. up yesterday. I got asked on a "date". Regardless of the questionable suitability of the term, I will be spending an evening alone with the Guy I've liked forever. Giggle. It was such a good day for that.. So... tomorrow night.. Penguins..)
suzza at 3:38 p.m.