2006-03-25
SO.
Oh, gosh.
Now I just need to figure out what to do. How to backtrack. The one person I talked to said I'm allowed to, a little. I mean, there is no rule that states I'm commited to anything. I mean, no one is commiting to anything. That's the problem, isn't it?
This doesn't feel right. It doesn't make me feel good. I know that life is not a persuit of "good" feelings, but something should not make me feel BAD; I've spent days feeling ill.
There is, of course, the chance that this could negate anything that has happened. Okay. That would hurt. This hurts, too. This shouldn't hurt like this, I don't think.
I will not choose to fall when I slip so much on my own accord. I just *can't* chose to ignore my God. And it's.. not something I can turn off.
So, this will be a hard conversation.
suzza at 12:24 p.m.